Writing as a Growing Experience

What do I journal about to clear my head? I write 3 pp. a day of morning pages, a goal for 6 days a week. I am laissez faire w/ this. If I am feeling edgy, I go to the pages. The tools work. I get a chance to spend some time w/ myself in communication w/ a healing source, a creativity "Construct," one that knows creativity well, one that I completely surrender to grow in my writing, to progress, reach new heights in writing, an exhillarating experience, safe, productive, healing, loving, caring, practicing loving kindness, spiritual growth, intellectual growth, a time to heal the wounds no one can see, to be strong, scars being the signs of experience, to resolve pain, growing pains, lessons of life on life's terms. I journal to clean the slate, dump the brain's residual garbage, the day to day garbage one pick's up from oneself and others. I get rid of the toxic playmates' noise, rid of the toxic people and their counterproductive garbage. I have been doing this since before 1994 and am still doing it. Mostly I write goals, slogans/affirmations, some brilliant, insightful things I find, by being aware, practicing mindfulness, playing the "MP3" all the way thru. I love to think. I love to feel. I love to increase the awareness of my senses in a healthy way. I choose to be productive, generating ideas, thoughts, moods, emotion be it music, writing and art. Creativity flourishes in a safe environment. Create one. Like some cities other times are better to be in the environment. Remember though you are right where you are supposed to be. Bloom where you are planted.

Well, unfortunately I have misplaced the entire blog I was going to publish tonight, so unfortunate, one on flow state and writing, creativity in general, somewhat rudimentary. If you are interested, search Ggl. I experienced flow state as an adult while rock climbing/technical and was able to repeat the experience in playing instruments, painting, and yes, w/ writing. Maybe this is better some how?

Find yourself, bit by bit, thru the rubble, excess baggage, noise, confusion from toxic people w/ codependent ways, paranoid controllers, sick people. Play the lifeguard. Help save people. And be free of letting a drowning person take you down w/ them. A winner has a good idea of the person and/or persons who can take them down, blocking their success. This is not a matter of exceuses. It is life on life's terms. Be cautious. LIke Dylan says, "Sometimes Satan comes as a man of peace." (Infidels album.)

The controversy was what when I climbed, starting during my gap year? It was training for one, and filled w/ insight and wisdom to take on the beigging years of adulthood, going for well-spent time, time, my time changing. Question/controversy; Train by climbing, alone, climbing by itself, the sole action? Cross-train? Run, lift, do pull-ups, one-arm, one-finger, swim, yoga, cycle? Again, ... or just climb. Writing poses similar situations, what works. Play hard, work hard, and there are no secrets; it is all just hard work. And a lot of a helluva good time. Let yourself be creative, write. If you need permission give it to yourself. ... and you can get it from me as well. You do not need me. A healing force can give it to you as well. Now, ... crunch out the magic. Throw away the critic for now. Produce like we are meant to do. Yield efforts, create the magic. Grow.